Prepare for a MindBlowing Tale ::: Dissociative Implicit Reliving 11 Years Later!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Kristin Windsor
- Dec 6, 2021
- 7 min read
Updated: Dec 7, 2021
My jaw is dropped for a million miles. It's TOO ASTOUNDING, so I clearly need space to express the unfathomable wonders I am presently witnessing within my own miraculous BEing.
In May 2020, Kristin went hiking at Mt. Madonna.
{ Above: Pictures of Kristin in May 2020 during her hike.
Below: Video of Kristin during that hike. }
During this unique season of healing with adaptable consciousness condition (ACC) in May 2020, she was directly re-living implicit procedural memory data from age 15, yet she did not know that at the time.
(For reference, Kristin's physical body was 27 years-old in 2020.)
(The following picture is of Kristin at age 15.)
Discover more about Kristin's healing journey during 2020 in this video, a bonus feature of her KNOWN documentary series!
Back then (in 2020), Kristin could not explicitly remember her life (or create new conscious memories in relation to a sense of self!), yet she implicitly relived neural wiring sculpted from her lifetime of personal experiences.
(Please explore my KNOWN documentary series, especially thesis #27, for further insight!)
Before concluding her hiking expedition that day (in May 2020), Kristin had a profound moment of deep soulful connection with nature. She stood in the middle of a perfectly silent forest as the sun streamed through the trees. The tall trees shattered the golden rays, splicing and splaying them across the air that surrounded Kristin.
She stood in marveled awestruck WONDER at the divine majesty of such miraculous beauty. She sang, chanted, dreamed big, laughed, cried, opened her heart, and enJOYed the sacred pleasures of her own glorious existence.
{I am only recently recovering these memories (in December 2021), as Kristin could not create conscious explicit memories in relation to a sense of self during this season of her healing journey (in May 2020). Being able to write about this is such a fascinatingly unique miracle, wowza!}
OK, so this wondrous moment that Kristin in May 2020 encountered... Standing in a forest at Mt. Madonna watching light stream through trees and feeling so captivated that she lingered for an extended period of time in this beautiful moment...
THAT EXACT SAME EXPERIENCE HAPPENED 11 YEARS PRIOR, AND KRISTIN RELIVED THAT NEURAL WIRING UNCONSCIOUSLY WITHOUT BEING ABLE TO CONSCIOUSLY REMEMBER THOSE PAST EXPERIENCES!!!!!!!!!
My mind is so blown by the miraculous wonder of it all, oh my goodness!!!
Kristin in 2009, at age 15, took these photographs while standing in a forest at Mt. Madonna...!
That experience in 2009... of Kristin standing in a forest at Mt. Madonna taking photographs of sunlight streaming through trees... automatically created neural data. While explicit autobiographical memories explained the story about this experience, implicit procedural memories recorded the body's action-patterns.
Even without being able to instinctively access explicit memories consciously, Kristin in 2020 unconsciously relived associated implicit procedural memories.
The most miraculous aspect of this unique dissociative experience is HOW ASTOUNDINGLY PRECISE THE IMPLICIT RELIVING WAS! Such profound precision!
I am mindblown a million times over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not just by the experiences themselves, but with how I'm able to piece it all together now... The brain is so wondrous!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Once more because it's so incredible...
That experience in 2009... of Kristin standing in a forest at Mt. Madonna taking photographs of sunlight streaming through trees... automatically created neural data.
While explicit autobiographical memories explained the story about this experience, implicit procedural memories recorded the body's action-patterns.
Even without being able to instinctively access explicit memories consciously, Kristin in 2020 unconsciously relived associated implicit procedural memories.
Yet here I AM now... with a unified sense of self... able to create conscious memories... fully recovered memories from my whole life and reorganized them so all of ME from then can be united with all of ME here and now... and having effectively integrated neural wiring sculpted during seasons that I could not consciously remember. MIRACULOUS MUCH!??!?!??!?!?!?!?! :O
Wowza, woah, oh my goodness gracious me oh my. MAGICK GALORE!!!!! Difficult to fathom the complex miracles unfolding.
OK WAIT HOLD UP ~ THERE'S ANOTHER TIDBIT THAT MAKES ALL OF THIS EVEN MORE ASTOUNDING TO BEHOLD!!!
In 2020, Kristin was dissociatively reliving implicit procedural memory data from early stages of original neurodevelopment... because early childhood trauma in 1997 halted her neurodevelopment and trapped aspects of consciousness in neural wiring sculpted during that time period. Parts of her brain literally stopped developing, and aspects of her self-essence became "stuck" within those neurobiological regions, unable to grow and participate in ever-evolving unfoldings of reality.
Those brain elements and aspects of self-essence were then evolving through their final stages of neurodevelopment in 2020, even though her body was 27 years-old.
Aspects of Kristin's inner child were stuck in trauma from age 4... Even while Kristin progressed through teenagehood (the 1st time!), those inner child aspects NEVER EXPERIENCED THOSE TEENAGE YEARS.
(PS! This was an important discovery along Kristin's healing journey and case study ventures: how suppressed trauma in neurobiological structures impacts consciousness beyond awareness. Extraordinarily fascinating miracles!!!)
When Kristin was 15 years-old, her 4 year-old inner child was NOT able to be a part of those experiences!! She was stuck at age 4, faaaaaarrrr beyond awareness (~99.08% of inner realities unfold beyond awareness, the inner child being the farthest from the conscious mind ~ please explore my KNOWN documentary series and Implicit Revelations Case Study for further insight!).
Sooooo!,...
As Kristin's brain completed final stages of neurodevelopment in 2020... The inner child aspects, who never fully joined experiences past age 4, were then unconsciously exploring and experiencing neural data from those time periods (including age 15).
...Woah.
(Helloooo, unfathomable MIRACLES...!!)
OK, track with me...!
15 year-old Kristin had that experience in the forest, but 4 year-old Kristin wasn't present because she was stuck in suppressed trauma... Yet at age 27, after years of trauma work while healing with adaptable consciousness condition (living with multiple inner persons/ alternate states of consciousness), that 4 year-old Kristin was able to implicitly relive experiences that 15 year-old Kristin originally had!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In 2020, at age 27, aspects of 4 year-old Kristin left 1997 and experienced moments that 15 year-old Kristin encountered in 2009. Kristin's inner child encountered Kristin's teenagehood with profound precision, even though her body was a grown adult's. All due to the infinite miraculous wonders of unique neurobiological activity while healing from complex trauma // early childhood trauma.
{Are you as mindblown as I am? because... I'm super mind blown... IT'S INCREDIBLE! So amazing! So miraculous! So astounding!! So wonderfilled! So indescribably incredible!!!}
The BRAIN is such a MIRACLE, and every CONSCIOUSNESS is perfectly unique! ^_^
LET'S ALL TAKE A PROFOUND MOMENT TO BREATHE INTO THE INDESCRIBABLY WONDROUS MIRACLE OF OUR OWN EXISTENCE.
**** b r r e e e e e a a t h e e e ***
~~~~(((PS Note! During these experiences, from 2017-2020, these distinct states of consciousness all went by their own individualized names, rather than being described as "Kristin" from different ages, as I express here. Just another unique miracle of exploring existence through the lens of a uniqueorder, or unique order of wiring within the neurobiological social engagement system ~ which you can discover more about in thesis #7 of my Implicit Revelations Case Study!!! To explore a profound flashback at Kristin's early healing journey in 2017, please explore this video about "how alters receive their names." This was when Kristin FIRST BEGAN her case study!!!)))~~~~
An additional perspective is offered regarding this miraculously unique dissociative experience that Kristin encountered in May 2020.
When Kristin was 15 years-old (2008-2009), she experienced constant trauma activations (stemming from the suppressed childhood trauma, which had been causing health challenges for several years at that point). From one perspective, aspects of 15 year-old Kristin became stuck in that time period of personal experience, parts of consciousness isolated in neurobiological regions of implicit intel.
During May 2020, a dissociative manifestation of 15 year-old Kristin implicitly relived a personal experience in a forest at Mt. Madonna. Perhaps the aspects of 15 year-old Kristin that became stuck in 2009 were "released" after implicitly reliving associated neural data in 2020!
{Left Image: Original 15 year-old Kristin.
Right Image: Dissociatively manifested 15 year-old Kristin in 2020, when her body was actually 27 years-old.}
Not only was 4 year-old Kristin experiencing the teenagehood that she missed out on and progressing through life encounters of being (dissociatively/implicitly) 15 years-old during May 2020....... but 15 year-old Kristin was potentially completing those experiences while cultivating implicit liberation along this miraculous healing journey.
Intriguing perspectives worth exploring!
Sooooo.... Yeeeeauhhh... Lots of miracles, basically. :)
Thank you for exploring the wonders with me!! ^_^
I feel so blessed to be alive, and I'm so grateful to share these insights along the journey. :)
Blessings, soul friends! <3
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With LOVE and LIGHT,
~Kristin Windsor
(and her Loving Awareness,
Inner Life Partner,
Inner Best Friend,
and Inner Child[ren])
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PS!
How did I get from there (May 2020) to here (December 2021)?
Through the healing modalities I sculpted and now share through my business Kristin's Consciousness Consultancy. :D Yaaaay!
Explore programs at https://www.kristinwindsor.com/healing and additional videos at https://www.kristinwindsor.com/healingvideos.
MAGICKAL TRANSFORMATION AWAITS!!! ^_^
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